a hummingbird up in an april sky

i don't know which end of the semester i hate more, fall or spring. because with fall, you have christmas coming up, and all you want to do is prepare for it but you're so tied down with all of your work that you can't even enjoy it. you're off for three days and then christmas comes, and then back to work and interning haha. also, holiday hours at the mall suck, so there really is no time for anything. but now, in the spring, i'm surrounded with beautiful weather (most days) the anticipation of summer, and allergies. i can't resist spring, it's my favorite time of the year. i just keep reminding myself that after may 4th i will no longer have to go to 50 clinton st, and the evening of may 12th will be filled with friends, drinks and really awful karaoke. all i want to do is go outside and hit the street running. luckily, this weekend is supposed to be beautiful and i will have time for outside activities :)

where will the fall leave us?

If there are no such things as walls
you’re not a prisoner at all
Another way out!
Yeah, there is nothing holding you!

what day is it even?

"What you need, what you deserve,
is a guy who adores you for what you are.
Who doesn't see you as a project, but a prize. you know?"
-sarah dessen

and i burn myself, on your tongue.

tonight i went to go see my loveys tiger riot play at the crazy donkey. you should check them out, they're amazing and did fantastic as always<3. the band that played after was called urban sun and they were also fantastic! it really got me because you could just look at the singer and see that he felt every note and word and melody. it was like the music was flowing through his body and out into us. i just love that kind of energy, and the music was great! love long island shows.

mmmm.

in honor of the new song just discovered.

wishing you the bluest skies, hoping something better comes tomorrow.

so when is this feeling better thing gonna happen?

it's all happening...

7!

christina the intern.

And its funny how you find You enjoy your life When you're happy to be alive

the world forgetting, by the world forgot.

I could die right now, Clem. I'm just... happy. I've never felt that before. I'm just exactly where I want to be.

c r u s h e d.

Give A Little.

my friend sent me this video this morning and i just couldn't stop smiling. then i started crying, but i was still smiling. it's so stupid, but it really just gave me a false sense of comfort for 3:50. i need to stop listening to morning view, and start listening to shout it out. the song is completely bubble-gum pop, but it takes me back to the summers, and how hanson concerts have been some of the happiest times in my life just dancing with my family and best friends. the song also just reminds me of being in love and just how that makes you want to dance and makes you feel free. regardless, it was great to wake up to, and i hope a positive start to my day.

let go.

“Our lives are not as limited as we think they are; the world is a wonderfully weird place; consensual reality is significantly flawed; no institution can be trusted, but love does work; all things are possible; and we all could be happy and fulfilled if we only had the guts to be truly free and the wisdom to shrink our egos and quit taking ourselves so damn seriously.” — Tom Robbins

i just saw this quote on the FP blog and couldn't
help but re-post it. love it.

morning routine

i'm having a pretty solid morning so far. i think i should probably do this or something like it everyday. aside from a few set backs (my dad throwing out my greek yogurt and the slowest person in the world driving in the parking lot), i've been catching up on life for a minute and drinking tea at the office in my giant stitch mug. i feel a really good sense of clarity finally. i honestly thought that my head was going to explode for a minute there. talk about emotional and physical overload. but i stand by my convictions that communication is always key, and even though i don't always communicate what i want or mean correctly, it can be worked out by talking. life is wayyyy too short to not work through things that are important to you.

you know you're wasting your energy and you're breaking my heart.

everything stings. physically, mentally, emotionally. i'm trying to figure out if there's a difference between hurting someone you love accidentally or on purpose, besides the obvious? i think accidentally might be worse because you can't control it. you don't even really know how to respond because it's so opposite of what you wanted. but even not having the intention of doing something doesn't take away from the fact that it happened. at least i know that it's still possible for me to feel this way.

fitting.

One baby to another says
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
I travel through a tube
And end up in your infection

(17 years)

blank.

Two to one
Static to the sound of you and I
Undone for the last time
And there this was
Hiding at the bottom of your
Swimming pool some September
And don't you think
I wish that I could stay
Your lips give you away

I can hear it, a jet engine
Through the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I'd
Prefer not to be rescued

Two to none
Roads lead away from this
I'm following myself just this once
I got spun
It appears you're spun as well
It happens when you pay attention
Well this could take all year, but

When it's quiet, does she hear me?
A jettison to the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I'd
Prefer not to be rescued
And oh, I can feel her, she's dying
Just to keep me cold
I'm finally numb, so please
Don't get me rescued... rescued...

And it's unclear
This may be the last song
Oh, I, I can tell
She's raising hell to give to me
But she got me warm
So please don't get me rescued
And oh, say you'll miss me
(Say you'll miss me)
One last time
And I'll be strong, but whatever you do
Please don't get me rescued...

'Cause I'm feeling like
I might need to be near you
And I feel alright, so please
Don't get me rescued...