you know you're wasting your energy and you're breaking my heart.

everything stings. physically, mentally, emotionally. i'm trying to figure out if there's a difference between hurting someone you love accidentally or on purpose, besides the obvious? i think accidentally might be worse because you can't control it. you don't even really know how to respond because it's so opposite of what you wanted. but even not having the intention of doing something doesn't take away from the fact that it happened. at least i know that it's still possible for me to feel this way.