Tuesday, May 31, 2011

MMMBop.


today is the 7 year anniversary of the morning that me and kraw got to sit in hanson's minivan at the marriot. it was a glorious morning, though we got there so early that the sun was not yet out from behind the clouds. we went into the lobby and got some starbucks coffee. adorned in my "jesus is my homeboy shirt," and sweats, we eagerly sat in the lobby staring at the check out counters. the minutes were ticking by, soon an hour had passed, no hanson. about to give up, a man with a shaved head holding a giant box walked into the lobby. kraw and i looked at each other, could it be? isaac hanson? well we soon found out. we chased this young man out of the lobby and down the front of the marriot screaming "are you isaac?!?" he angrily replied, "yes." i asked if he could sign my shirt and he seemed annoyed but willing. all of a sudden, kraw noticed zac in the back of the van and started crying hysterically. i moved over so that she could talk to him, and suddenly, my world stopped. taylor hanson opened up the van door. i sat there in shock, not knowing how to respond, then suddenly blurted out: OH MY GOD! YOU'RE TAYLOR HANSON! He laughed and said yes, and then kraw climbed in and i basically sat on taylor's lap. i asked him if we could take a picture and he laughed at me. then zac grabbed kraw's boob by accident and said "don't get me arrested." lisa also gave zac a card with her number on it. sadly he never called. taylor was a sweetheart, asking if we bought the album and thanking us a million times for stalking them. their tour manager was yelling that they were going to miss their flight, but i basically told him to fuck off and stop ruining my life dream. we were 16. this is the only photographic evidence we have.

dont watch if you have epilepsy


my friend jared showed me the new kanye album coming home from the beach, and as much as i don't like kanye as an individual, the album is pretty good. i'm dying though because the video has an epilepsy disclaimer on it. that is beyond fabulous.

Friday, May 27, 2011

you may be a lover but you aint no dancer.




i'm currently awaiting the arrival of kristen rose. these are my fave fridays. panera is a great hangover cure, though i'm not sure how three glasses of wine got me so messed up. in other news, i realized how much i love making playlists. my dream job would be to make mix cd's for a store. how awesome would it be to just be able to put together playlists that thousands of people are going to hear? i love looking up bands and putting together mix tapes. i find it therapeutic, and i love how music never fails to speak when words sometimes do. so i'm sitting in my room, with the red shades drawn and loving the light coming through, and making a mix which i'll share right here:


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Monday, May 23, 2011

this is how im feeling today.


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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

take me the way i am.


I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me
But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now


this is the last official week of school. i finished one paper due thursday today, and started studying hardcore for my policy test. i'm not too nervous about it, maybe i should be. after studying all day, i'm going out for some sangria with ms. samantha. i think i'm just happy because this isn't as complicated as other areas of my life right now. school has that false sense of security, because as long as you do what is expected of you, you get the results. oh well.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Thursday, May 5, 2011

cinco de fail.

so every cinco de mayo i think i'm going to have an awesome time. i love mexican food and i love margaritas, so why not, right? this year, i was especially excited because i knew i was going to be in the city for school and brother jimmy's has $3 margs on thursdays. but of course, i am one of those really nerdy kids who has the worst allergies in the world and walks around with their inhaler (hot). one marg deep, and i didn't think it was possible for my eyes or nose to be any itchier. sadly, i took the 945 home. maybe when kristen's home this weekend we can have a reenactment. while i was taking my nose spray (double hot), i noticed that there was a warning label attached stating, "for the nose." please tell me, where else would you stick that?? this came on on the ride home though and made me smile:

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

bothering me.

i need to post this because it is literally making me sick to my stomach. how can people praise the death of another human being? why is death warranted by more death? seeing americans praise and drink and gloat over the death of another person is disgusting and disturbing. of course, i believe that osama should have paid for his crimes, but these horrible things i have been seeing and hearing are terrible and make me ashamed. i've read many, many posts stating something equivalent to, "one sand n***er down, many to go," and it horrifies me. my heart goes out to the americans who are of middle eastern descent, and the poor civilians living in the middle east. how can people be so ignorant to lump people who look the same into one category: terrorists? i guess i already know the answer to that question...

second thoughts.

so this weekend i went to queens, and had a chance to hear the new incubus album on repeat in the car ride there and home. my friend shared his thoughts that yes, although this wasn't "incubus" in the expected sense, it was still a quality album compared to other music being written now. when i got home, i decided to try it out again. incubus is my favorite band after all, and sometimes it takes me awhile to get into an album.

when i first heard "if not now, when?", i was bored because i had an expectation of what i wanted the album to be like. when it didn't fulfill my expectations, i instantly wrote it off. i feel as though i always project my feelings onto something, hoping that it will be a certain way, and i can get let down easily because of it. i'm learning to try and be more open with things i experience, and form an opinion based on my experience rather than my expectations. so, in the end, i've come to the conclusion that i absolutely love this album. it is incredibly chill and so different from everything incubus has done in the past. it's definitely going to be one of my top album's of the summer.

i thought initially that the lyrics were simple and boring, but obviously i should never have assumed that brandon boyd would write words for the sake of filling space. there aren't a lot of lyrics, which threw me off a little as well, but i actually like this a lot better. brandon often uses a lot of words and phrases, in a very fast paced motion that really hits you, but these hit me in a different way. they're not lyrics that you can just take at face value (well most of the songs). looking at the lyrics away from the songs, they appear more like poems than song lyrics. though the two are often interchangeable, there is a marked difference between these lyrics and your typical rock record.

the musicality of the album. oh my god. it is obvious that mike's studies have heavily influenced his writing. the harmonies are ridiculous. "tomorrow's food," is a fantastic example of this. easily my favorite song on the album, and a perfect closing song, the beginning is haunting, with brandon almost speak-singing with beautiful dissonant harmonies. the deep strings support the simple melody, and round out the haunting appeal. it builds consistently with this same repetitive melody that is hypnotizing. the light strings come in again, ending the album in a light and quirky way, similar to the opening. the lyrics on this song are my favorite of the album: "is anyone out there? i am high and dry. suffering is a theme, but reckoning is the only reason why we suffer at all."
brandon had this to say about this song:

"Lyrically, i am specifically referencing philosopher ken wilbur's quote from, 'a brief history of everything.' 'no epoch is finally privileged. we are all tomorrow's food. the process continues, and a spirit is found in the process itself, not in any particular epoch, or time, or place.' no one has ever put so succinctly and eloquently into words how i felt about growing up. about reaching my mid-thirties. after reading this quote, and witnessing the vast push and pull at play, between the old and the new, and the young and the not so young, i saw the inherent beauty and the wisdom in the process of it all. and consequently, wrote a song about it. It is in this reporter's opinion that we are in the midst of a massive shift. Culturally, ethically, artistically, technologically, intellectually, philosophically and spiritually. Almost of the "-ally's". This shift has occurred before; with different details and end results of course. And this shift will happen again. Absolutely. The new thing at play is our awareness of this shift. The awareness that there is never an 'end of the world'. Only the process and the choice to witness and to participate. What may feel like the end of the world is that humbling moment when you realize that a new set of ideas has usurped your generation's ideas. Confused and confounded by the "way things are going" you can't help but think it's all going to shit, and that you have to fight to defend what you've built. But in actuality what is occurring is a necessary evolution. A handing over of the collective baton. If not now, when?"

"promises, promises," is the only song on the album i don't particularly love. oddly, it's the one that sticks in my head the most, but i think that might have something to do with it. it's too sing-songy and repetitive for me, and it sounds like the most produced track on the album.

"friends and lovers," i wrote off initially. at face value, it did nothing for me. but once i started to listen to the lyrics and the melodies, i realized that this was the perfect love song. "what's wrong with you is good, for what's wrong with me. and i think maybe we should stick together." i love these lyrics. no one is perfect, love is not perfect, but when you're in love you work through the bad parts because you have those flaws as well. when the flaws work together, love can flow.

of course i love "switchblade" because it's the one driving song on the album that has some of the harder incubus qualities. the song has a great beat, and brandon's quick singing comes back, but still reaches those amazing notes in the chorus. i think they placed it at the perfect spot on the album, ending the more up-beat songs on the album. "adolescents" seems to flow nicely from it.

anyway, if you have the album, and you hated it at first like me, listen to it 5 more times and your opinion might change. why should we expect artists to constantly produce the same thing over and over? this album is evolutionary, calm, dissonant, melodic and i can't wait to see it live this summer!

Monday, May 2, 2011

so true.

i just saw this quote on another blog and it is perfect for my thoughts of the day:



"Returning hate for hate multiplies hate. Adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."
Martin Luther King Jr.




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be ok.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

build it bigger than the sun, let it grow...


what a beaaaautiful day it was. my allergies were horrible but cleared up for
a little at least so i could enjoy the outside air.
new people, new places, and a bag full of sand.
i also learned how to say "jesus is alive" in sign language this morning.
upon repetitive listening to new incubus, i'm giving it another shot.
more thoughts on that one later.
summer's coming, i can feel it :)