AM//

A cloud hangs over,
And mutes my happiness,
A thousand ships couldn't sail me back from distress,
Wish you were here,
I'm a wounded satellite,
I need you now put me back together make me right

decisions decisions

i can't decide which version i love more. both are equally as haunting in two completely different ways.

or

doo doo doo doo.

russian based artist phillip igumnov has created some pretty awesome prints. his work is comprised of collages and photographs that make me feel like i'm back in the 70s with a hint of the twilight zone.

seventy times 7

favorite song/favorite band/played live last night.

long island shows with long island bands remind me why i love it here.

the paramount is also a major step up from the crazy donkey, though that place will always hold memories for me.

i wanna be ready for what you do.

shadowboxer


listen to my cover of "shadowboxer" by fiona apple. really difficult song to sing, so it 'aint purrrfect.

life's not about what's better than you

http://chanelbagsandcigarettedrags.tumblr.com

fantastic.

now as i'm sure it's clear to anyone who reads my blog/knows me, incubus is my favorite band. that being said, this video is HYSTERICAL. mainly because brandon is being completely serious. the open shirt thing blowing in the wind is absolutely fantastic. i mean, i understand it fits with the context of the song, but still. the dramatic hand movements really add something as well. thankfully brandon enjoys being shirtless...a lot, and that part makes it better.

success?

last night one of my professor's was talking about bloomberg throwing the protesters out of the park as a successful task group that got the job done peacefully, efficiently, and with no one getting hurt. perhaps it was efficient, but i'm not too sure about the other two...

occupynyc on livestream.com. Broadcast Live Free

technicolor.

check out this awesome music video by the Australian indie band Hudson. cool song, but even cooler video featuring pencils! see for yourself.

No longer lost, we're just hangin' around; One day we'll all be found

i've always had this fascination with abandoned places. even if it is 12 pm and the sun is shining, there's still an eerie feeling of what once was. even when i wear vintage clothing i get this feeling of the unknown. i think about all the things that once went on there. you never know the "firsts" that occurred, or all of the laughs, screams maybe even deaths. just the conversations that happened, the people that walked those floors are complete strangers to you, yet it meant so much to them. i've posted a few photos from an abandoned six flags from hurricane katrina, as well as some abandoned houses. haunting to say the least.



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the truth behind it all.

i was consumed

with proving you were a liar.





source: chanel bags and cigarette drags

and i almost love this town when i'm by your side.

You woke me from a long sleep
And i'm almost back
Closer than ever
To finding the hidden track
If i told you the truth
You wouldn't like what i said
I almost believed i was dead
There'll be no more waiting
You're gonna melt all the ice
In my head
There'll be no more crying
You're gonna make it all better instead

new york city, center of the universe.

yesterday i went with alyssa to the metropolitan in manhattan. they have a modern art wing now, which i believe is fairly new, and it was absolutely amazing. i saw some picasso, van gogh, warhol and jackson pollock! it was amazing to see some of these works of art in person. i've seen them so many times in books, posters, clothing etc., but it's nothing like seeing them up close. i love that i live so close to a city where everything i could possibly want to do and learn is at my fingertips.

SNAP.

this saturday night was my boyfriend's surf photo competition at Empire Tattoos in Oceanside. it was a huge success and all of the photos looked awesome. the photo's will be up until january, so go check them out! and buy john jensen's ;) above are some pictures from the event. check out more of his photo's here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/facepiece

i'd like to think i'm a mess you'd wear with pride.

where you invest your love, you invest your life.

my manager told me a great story this morning about how her friend just happened to be passing a farm where a barn was caught on fire. he went into the house to wake up whoever was home, and it was an elderly couple. they were completely passed out, and needless to say, she showed me the picture and they would have been swallowed in flames. he said he just happened to be in the right place at the right time, but i couldn't stop thinking about how many people would just call the fire dept and be on their way, or not even call. i don't know you, but kudos to you, sir.

so obviously we all knew these were coming...

the best part is that they make awake and zen tea cups!

the long distance lover.

this is so adorable. a scottish designer known as little riot created these pillows for lovers who are far apart from one another. each person wears a ring sensor that wirelessly communicates with the other person's pillow. when the other person is sleeping on the pillow, your pillow begins to glow. if you put your head to the pillow you can even hear the persons heartbeat! i love this idea!! long distance can be so difficult. i believe it can even work overseas but i'm not positive. check it out here.





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out of sight, out of mind.

I’m feeling overwhelmed, overwhelmed
It’s getting out of line, line, line, line
I know I’m not alone
Just adolescents, you and I
It doesn’t make me feel any better

litaaaaa.

i'm obsessed with lita shoes by jeffrey campbell, but as my girl luce and i were discussing last month, they're not the most functional shoe. i can't say that i've tried them on, and jeffrey campbell makes unusually comfy shoes, but i just can't see myself walking into the local starbucks with a pair of lita's on. this isn't LA. with that being said, HOLY SHIT THESE LITA'S ARE AMAZING. i think that these had the potential to be really tacky, but he designed them spot on. i love that the spikes round up on the top. i've found them being sold online for somewhere near $600! that's insane. urban has them for $190 which is really reasonable, and works out well for me. my style has definitely started turning from more florals and bright colors to a lot of plaids and black. maybe i'm going through a phase. either way, i want these...so much.

it's the most wonderful time of the year.

it seriously is. and the start of this wonderful time should be graced with the presence of delicious snacks. this morning i literally jumped up and down when i saw the red cups on the starbucks wall with "gingerbread latte" underneath it. it got me thinking about other fun holiday drinks. yes, there's the conventional (and delicious) gingerbread martini. but what about...GINGERBREAD JELLO SHOTS! omgz. ok, but back to reality; i hunted the inter-web for some intriguing recipes and decided to share this one. mainly because they look so darn cute. most likely making my boyfriend try this with me this weekend. it's better to try these things out now before the holidays come around. no one wants to be struggling on thanksgiving morning with nasty results. trust me, the first year i decided to make green bean casserole i used whole canned mushrooms. my family suffered through it because i was a teenager attempting to cook. and they love me.


ingredients:

• 1/3 cup Monin Gingerbread syrup
• 3 tbsp water
• 3 tbsp sweetened condensed milk
• 2 1/2 envelopes Knox gelatin (1/2 envelope equals about 1 tsp of gelatin powder)
• 1/2 cup vanilla vodka
• 1/2 cup Baileys Irish Creme liqueur
• 1/3 cup Kahlua coffee flavoured liqueur
• Whipped topping and maraschino cherry segments for garnish, if desired

Pour gingerbread syrup, water, and sweetened condensed milk into a small saucepan and sprinkle with gelatin. Allow to soak for a minute or two. Heat over low heat until gelatin is fully dissolved, about 5 minutes. Mixture will be a bit thick. When gelatin is dissolved, remove from heat. Mix in the vodka first, then the Bailey’s and Kahlua, stirring well after to each addition to fully incorporate. Strain to remove any un-dissolved gelatin solids.

Pour into molds or pan. Chill until fully set, several hours or overnight.

To serve, unmold or cut into desired shapes. Immediately before serving, garnish each jelly shot with a little whipped topping and a maraschino cherry segment.

Unmolding Tips (metal mold):

• Allow gelatin to set until completely firm, preferably overnight.
• Before attempting to unmold, loosen the edges of the gelatin by pulling gently either with a clean fingertip or a knife dipped in warm water to loosen.
• Dip mold in warm water, just to rim, for 10 seconds (Don't dip for too long, as jelly shots can get a bit melty, losing the crisp detail of the mold. If this happens, don't worry! Just return the mold to the refrigerator for 20-30 minutes and try again!)
• Lift mold from water and gently pull gelatin from edge of mold with moist fingers. Invert the mold onto a nonstick cookie sheet, and give it a little shake. Repeat the pulling, inverting and shaking process until all the jelly shots have been removed from the pan.
  

check out her other awesome jello shot recipes here!!! so cool!

where's the line?

lovin' tips.

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

via: cosmicdust

aint' that the truth

autumn fallin' from trees

the end of october always leaves me in a blur. wasn't it just august? i literally have no time to do anything spontaneous and i hate that. i feel like everything is always planned. not that that's necessarily a bad thing, but i miss waking up and not knowing what might occur during the day. i also am trying very, very hard to not leave all of my work for the last minute but that is proving to be unsuccessful. i get so caught up in my internship work that all i want to do is study that, and then i forget that i also am taking 4 classes. life seems to be on hyper speed, but i guess that's better than sitting around.

yesterday i was talking about how i want to just go to JFK and fly anywhere that'll take me. i'm not going to be picky. i'll even take montana. i bet montana is beautiful, and how many of you can say that you've been there?

farewell lovers. it's time to continue writing a paper on african american slaves and the jim crow era. i'm sure it's not shocking to anyone that no one is pulling my teeth to get me to write this. then my break of the day: bayville scream park! does anyone think pirate zombies will have chainsaws? lets hope not.

the older we all get, the better we all were.

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in case i ever feel like i never do anything...part dos.

so day 2 of our trip was just as fabulous.

8:30 am: alarms. is this real or am i dreaming?
8:40 am: kaela lets me know i'm not dreaming. into the shower.
9 am: champagne headache leads to a hunt for a living social instant deal.
9:05 am: order 20 dollars worth of food for 12 dollars at the hollywood corner restaurant.
9:10 am: get dressed/pack while listening to big girl you are beautiful and incubus on repeat.
10 am: checkout with creepstat man. we don't care that you're going to name your daughter makaela. that's not my name.
10:15-11:30 am: stuff our faces with chicken chorizo, eggs, coffee and avocado. home fries with cheese apparently is a new concept to southern california.
12 pm: get on sunset blvd. and hunt down our tattoo shop. observation, californians love to eat with their pups.
12:15 pm: tell the tattoo guys what we want, they sketch it up. we get the price down.
12:30 pm: shawn, our artist, puts the stencil on my arm and i immediately get it taken off. not for me.
12:31 pm: shawn puts it on my upper hip and i instantly jumped on the bench to get it.
12:40 pm: i had "yolo" on my side in awesome font.
12:45-1 pm: kaela making her decision of body parts.
1 pm: tattoo on the arm!!!
1:10 pm: shawn refused to let us tip him. check out: http://www.americanelectrictattoo.com/home.html if you want an awesome tattoo and experience.
1:15 pm: after being advised that we would probably die if we tried to check out the hollywood sign, we figured it would be a good idea to go.
1:20-2:30 pm: drove super slow around the windiest streets in the world. saw the most amazing views of the hollywood hills and the sign. trespassed on someone's property to get some photos. nbd.
3 pm: arrived at "the love shack" in venice beach. large assortment of bean bags. couldn't fit it in my bag.
3:15 pm: realized what brandon's gf meant when she said we should check out abbot kinney.
3:30 pm-6 pm: strolled around abbot kinney and found the most amazing vintage shops and stores. could have spent all day there. very trendy, but very pup-friendly. every store in venice had either a dog or a water dish in it. we met melissa, who runs luxury jones !!! she told us how much she loved our style, and we got into the topic of free people, leading us to discover she works for luxury jones. a pair of LJ boots were seen in the free people catalogs and here! awesome shoes and such a sweetheart.
6:15 pm: made our way to the venice boardwalk but of course got lost. parking is ridiculous around here!
6:30 pm: finally parked and walked almost the entire venice boardwalk. realized it was 7:30 and we still had to eat, get gas, drop the car off and get through security by 9:30. eek.
7 pm: got gas and spotted: DEL TACO. yes! the moment i'd been waiting for.
7:15 pm: changed outside of in-n-out. might have mooned a woman in a car. kaela put on her hobo-wear.
7:30 pm: got to in-n-out. i ate my del taco quietly while kaela ordered $24 dollars worth of food and paraphernalia from in-n-out. 5 spreads please. 5?! sir, just give me the spread.
8:15 pm: realized it was 8:15 and our flight was in an hour. shit.
8:35 pm: dropped the car off and ran to the shuttle. everyone thought we were on something but we weren't. just happy to be alive. in california. rushing for a plane.
8:45 pm: ran through security dropping things and looking really cute.
9:25 pm: get to the gate and realize that our plane is actually delayed. awesome life.
9:50 pm: no one will switch seats with us so we have to sit alone. "i'm gonna drool all over this guy."
6 am: arrived back in NY :(
7 am: got to john's.
9 am: woke up.
10:37 am: on a train to manhattan.


best.weekend.ever.

in case i ever feel like i never do anything...

i wanted to remind myself of the shit i've done the past 2 days; just in case i forget.

SATURDAY:

5 am: loaded our bags into john's car and headed to the airport.
5:20 am: got mcdonald's breakfast; could not scoop out the yoke
6 am: went through security at checkpoint B
6:30 am: got patted down in checkpoint B
6:35 am: realized we had to go through checkpoint A
6:45 am: made it through checkpoint A
7 am: boarded our plane
10:05 am: arrived in los angeles
10:06 am: left the mexican blanket on the plane
10:45 am: fought with an old women about our car
11:30 am: got the car
12 pm: found out that in-n-out makes burgers with grilled onions
12:10 pm: made friends with every in-n-out worker
12:15 pm: ate massive amounts of food with spread
12:30: made friends with an old lady going to NY in november
1 pm: arrived at our hotel and got settled in thanks to jonah/johan/joe-han
2 pm: drove to santa monica and ended up in a vintage store
2:15 pm: became best friends with Bruce
3 pm: spent $40 dollars on a plain green t-shirt with some stains. best buy 2011.
3:15 pm: found out we were in brandon boyd's girlfriend's vintage store.
3:30 pm: bought cookies, champagne, sprite, squirt, and bacardi
4 pm: drove to newport beach
4:15 pm: kaela begins to drink her squirt with the cup holder attached
4:30 pm: kaela opens my sprite
4:31 pm: sprite explodes and kaela continues to hand it to me while i'm driving on a 6 lane freeway
4:35 pm: attempted sprite cleanup
5 pm: got called "women" repeatedly by drunk men
5:30 pm: saw an amazing sunset on the beach
6 pm: ate at sol cafe. mushrooms in butter for $2.50
7 pm: how the eff do you turn on these lights?!
7:28 pm: cut across 5 lanes of traffic due to dancing from "foster the people."
7:30 pm: cut off 45 minutes worth of traffic going into incubus. because we're from new york.
7:45 pm: attempt at taking a bacardi shot. attempt failed.
7:46 pm: invited to drink a beer with our neighbors
8:30 pm-10:15 pm: INCUBUS<3
10:15-11 pm: no one is really sure.
11:15 pm: quickly get dressed, down mimosas, fill up douchebag and call a cab
12 am: "sooo, like, how does this work?" gain free entry into a VIP club at the Roosevelt Hotel
1 am: shake hands with taye diggs. he suggests we talk with his agent about becoming actresses. we declined.
1:45 am: invitation to go to justin timberlake's house, aka a strange boys hotel room. invitation declined.
2:30 am: returned to our hotel.

i was going to continue with day 2, but then i realized that i can't really see anymore. until tomorrow...

cruisin' down the highway with my friends top down and we're all on our way to the beach...

this weekend i am going to california for one night to see incubus with kaela! spontaneous and crazy? maybe a little. but you must live until you die. picture updates to follow!

fall musts.

fall is my favorite fashion season by far. i love the in-between where you can layer, taking off or putting on as the crazy weather patterns occur. one of my all time favorite trends is mixing patterns. i love the grunge look of the 1990's, and flannels, stripes and florals bring me back to it. another fall must for me is tights and shorts with a fun top. the more ripped, the better for me, but regular vintage shorts are perfect too. i also love layering socks and boots and scarves. i'm a summer girl, but fall fashion takes it away.

ingrid makes me happy.

love this braid!

i can't wait to try this before work later! look's pretty easy and perfect for fall with a big sweater, skinnies and a nice pair of boots!

souls.

i don't have the adele album (i know), so this morning i was youtubing some of her songs and i saw this comment that someone made about soul mates. i'm guessing it was in return to someone else's comment that perhaps adele and whoever "someone like you," is about will get back together because they are soul mates. the idea of soul mates always interested me, so i decided to do a little research on the origins of the concept. it seems to be an idea that originated in the times of ancient greece. the greeks said that zeus created humans with four arms and legs and two faces, but feared what they could do, so he split them in half. this led to the two people continuously searching for their other half.

other comments about soul mates is that they are much too precious and delicate to ever be with in real life. it has been said that being with a soul mate is too emotionally over-powering and painful to actually be in a relationship with.

most of us see soul mates as a non-platonic relationship, yet soul mates can be with the same gender even if you are heterosexual. it can even be a friend or a parent. society and the media gives us this idea that we must go out and search for our soul mate and that we can never find true happiness without them. isn't that the ultimate goal that you always hear people speak of; marrying their soul mate?

i personally like the idea that a soul mate does not have to be a non-platonic partner, but the idea of marrying your soul mate, that person you are destined to be with forever, does have a sort of exciting air to it. i don't think that you necessarily know if someone is your soul mate until after they're gone. while you're in the moment, you just live and get to experience that beautiful co-existence with another. if you spend too much time thinking about the soul mate thing or if this person is really the "one," you're going to get trapped in those thoughts, and no one will ever match up to your expectations. my advice, just love and appreciate the ones around you for who they are and what they do for you.

(above images of a few souls in my life)